So many good things are happening right now...as I look back over our journey with our son I see God's hand working it for his glory. I can't say that has always felt like the case when in the midst of things that felt like a nightmare, but it's all lead to a healthy baby.
Our baby is a few short days from 2 years old and I can't even imagine where we would be without him. God definitely prepared me and Nick for this handsome boy and his sister's absolutely adore him. And I am seeing the potential of sharing his story through this children's book as the next stage in helping him and children just like him. I am excited, nervous and feel inadequate to have this opportunity, but blessed that it is becoming a reality.
Never did I think at 29 years old I would be doing this. I was telling my friend "things with this book have been going way too easy...everything for us in the past 4 years has been hard, not just hard but next to impossible and if something could go wrong it did..." she reminded me to not the seeds of doubt start clouding what God is orchestrating because obviously he wants this book to happen. Funny, my mom just said the very same thing a few days before, do you think I am being told something? Haha, I better start listening don't you think.
I was taking a Facebook walk down memory lane and I found the local news segment on Nico from February and it literally makes me cry every time I watch it. My message was the same then as it is now, only now I am striving for a wider range and bigger platform. And as always I am putting my children first.
My brush with a health scare this month definitely made me think about lots of things. I saw my husband deal absolutely amazing in a crisis situation and despite his PTSD maintain the calmest demeanor and got me the help I needed. Only later did he tell me the truth about how scared he was and that he didn't feel like he did good. So coming from me who saw the whole thing and couldn't help him or take over for him he did awesome and I was and am so proud of him. I never wanted to have a situation like that where it tested him to that point, but I am resting a little easier knowing he is absolutely equipped to deal with it.
I am also seeing friends who jumped right in and dropped plans to help watch kids or come help us out even when they have plans themselves. I am very thankful for them, they know who they are.
I tell other dating or engaged people that the storms of life only last so long and that your fortitude to weather it together is what will bring you out on the other side stronger.
My prayer right now is that I remember that for myself too and that this book will be the catalyst to bring my family at the end of one of our lowest valleys and start the upward climb into an easier time together as a family, financially and spiritually.
